When does it get better?! 

“When does it get better?”
My husband asked me from our bed as I walked in to wash my face, put on my face cream and brush my teeth.

I said “I don’t know?! Ugh maybe it doesn’t get better.” Then I walked out.

I went into check on our son since he woke up with a nightmare. I can barely keep my eyes open and my teeth are growing fur and I really need to wash my momiform aka “the robe”

This is reality.  I’m the mom. Even tho sometimes I feel like a dirty diaper and smell like a prepubescent boy. I’m happy I get to stay home and take care of my boys. I don’t know how it’s all going to workout but Lord knows it will. 

Right now I’m in my older sons twin bed writing this and watching him sleep. Creepy?! Um no! Pretty soon he won’t let me in his room, let alone lay in his bed to talk and scratch his back. 

Just before he fell asleep he looks at me and says,

“You can be happy mommy. I love you to the moon and back ten times.”

10 is the magic number. Everything is 10, ten more minutes, ten years old, 10! 

He was playing with my hair and then he kissed his fingers and touched my lips.

Tears start streaming down my cheeks and falling onto the pillow.

  He fell asleep with my hair in his hand. 

How do children have such intuition and know just what to say? I feel like God was speaking to me through my child. 

Lately it’s been so tiresome and exhausting to teach, love and nurture 2 little ones and all that goes along with it. But there are these little moments when you get a glimpse of a little breakthrough. 

When they are on their best behavior and use manners. 

When they show remorse and have a conscience. 

When they genuinely show love, care and concern for another person, you stop and think I’m doing a damn good job!

When they are misbehaving and you threaten and you have to follow through. That’s being hardcore and good parents. We have been following through and finally the thing I never understood and hated hearing my mom say was “it’s always harder to say No, than it is to say yes!” 

Huh?!? It all makes sense now. In order to not raise an asshole in today’s society we have to say no. 

Reward good behavior but also give penalties. Negotiating with little terrorists. Telling them NO more screen time when it’s easier to ignore and silence them with God knows what garbage. Hello guilty! Erryday. We iPad, YouTube, watch movies. 

People want to criticize everything. Mostly people without kids. Sorry DINKS. I always think “this is the diary of Britney Spears, you think you know but you have no idea.” It’s true we don’t know someone’s path until we walk in their shoes. 

But refreshingly I have heard that if our parents had these devices and tools they too would use them to their advantage to get things done. One of my favorite quotes of all time is from Ferris Bueller’s day off Ferris: “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.”

When does it get better? It doesn’t because these are the best days of our lives. The hardest yet most rewarding, because we are blessed and responsible for molding 2 precious boys into men. It’s a serious and great reaponsibility. We must stop and be present. Be present with our children. Be present with ourselves and with eachother. 


Just Happy Mommy